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lyrics
Abandoned our house
Nail the wood down
Blood runs through the walls
Dripping down
Dripping down
This time we didn’t look back
And now I get that
Today I’m making out to be a fraud
I care but
I don’t care at all
Would you be proud
Could you look at me now
All the bloods draining out
draining out
draining out
trying to make good changes
you know I hate this
had my reasons for leaving every last mirror behind
oh what I went through
to be good
to be good for you
offered my all
gave you my all
till I was running
on nothing
now I got nothing
nothing hurts worse than I thought it would
I catch myself mid turn some of the time
“I’ll be enough”
those were your words not mine
“I’ll be enough”
those were your words not mine
“I’ll be enough”
those were your words not mine
(Julia Mentlik)
and I won't know whether those lights are northern
or southern or just an illusion
cause I'll be lucid
cruising down the highway loosely
based off every map I've ever seen
and your loose lips will get us lost
but if there was anyone i’d wanna be lost with
it'd be you
cause darling I believe in chakras
and mock me all you want
but I don't talk simply to fill the silence
so I mean it when I say that yellow I saw
all around you made me really think
I was back staring at those lights
or maybe even the sunrise
I slept through leaking into my eyelids
and instead of black I saw the most beautiful
blood vessel break of day like rays through
the curtains in your bedroom
and I have never felt more solace than that
and this life will be worth every callous
every blister
every splinter
every skid mark
and tire burn I get
and it'll hurt like hell
but hey along way I'll get the best fucking tan I've ever gotten
and my hands will be as sweaty as ever
but at least you'll hold them anyways
credits
released May 1, 2020
Mixed by Zeke Mountain
Cowritten by Julia Mentlik
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